Nonamepunk

Fly fly fly

Ha… I pretend to be excited about going “home”. Dont get me wrong i really am.  the other part is saying oh shit oh shit oh shit…… im the bad guy. im the one leaving my wife….and i know that eventually i will be in the living room…. in a conference parent talk. id like to say no… i mean i could. but if this is gonna happen i guess i have to “face the music”.

I know what i want and this is it.

and i guess that makes me an asshole. sure…………but i have been patient.

lets see what happens now… and ill simply re act.

2//6/12 for me…i live in the future. sunday.

well its superbowl weekend. ive got just about 10 more days left intill my R&R. hurray.

Ive tried my hardest not to plan a damn thing a thing for san antonio but still the hardest part is going back into Louisiana and dealing with the awkwardness of in-laws and how this whole separation thing works out. i dont even feel right sleeping in the house. so i just might sleep in the car with a kitty.

im ready to say goodbye to louisiana but i know it wont be the last.

Sun/Mon day off.

Today was my night off. I spent it playing Ping pong, video games and drinking some beer.  Ive been talking to people back home in san antonio. God i cant wait to move back there. I just want this to be over with.  I hate feeling like im working just so she can spend it. i try not to accuse her of it.. she said she wasnt going to fuck me over but everytime i see that she post up a new tattoo i cant help but to think she’s fucking me over. ive never spent a dime of her money on a tattoo or myself so this shouldnt be any different.

Not a robot.

In an attempt to express my inner monologue. Ive decided to do away with the straight up porn and talk about my day and stuff… i know.. sounds lame But not as lame as seeming like an emotionless clown.